Happy 4th of July weekend. Everyone had a good/safe weekend

Well Travis is supposed to head home in the morning, I havent talked to him in hours so IDK. I just wish that he didnt have to leave again. I'm so over having to say goodbye. I cannot wait for the day when it doesnt happen.

dad is looking at a job in Jupiter Island FL... I'm not sure how I feel about it.. I dont want to think about it.

fuck I miss travis so much. I hate this, I want him here with me with no problems or drama. I think way too much about things and it drives me crazy.

Wellll...

Travis comes home from Cali this week :) which I'm stoked about bc then he will be home for the 4th this weekend :) I hope my new dress is in by then so I can wear it!! lol but I doubt it :/
things have been good, had a little issue but things are fixed and better than ever! He deploys soon, which sucks, but its only 7 months, thats better than 13 right? We're strong we can make it through it no problem! I have a great support system here and in NC. We're having us time this weekend which excites me bc its been SO long since we have had us time :) then while hes on pre-deployment leave we're going somewhere for a weekend, just us ...yay!! Work is eh.. stressful.. not really what I want to be doing but its mon-friday so I cant really complain.. but they better let me off for my dr appointment on friday..they've known about it for a month now.. I guess we'll see..

Abby had her recital today and was the cutest thing ever!! She did sucha good job!! :)

But its time for me to go to bed

xox

hellooooo

So, Travis is training in Cali, for like 2/3 more weeks. I'm deactivating FB for a little while just because I needa break.. work is going good, about 35hrs a week so I'm staying busy. I miss my NC family.. I cannot wait to get back there this weekend and see everyone. I need to start going to the gym everyday after work, it just needs to happen haha. I'm gonna put my clothes in my car and just start going! :) Things between Travis and I are going pretty good. I saw him 3 weekend in May which made me happy :) He even came home and surprised me one weekend :) Its gonna be hard to stay off of fb but I'm going to see how long I can do it for..lol. I have been so tired lately idk what to do. I think I just need to get a full 8hrs of sleep, and not get woken up. I really wish I could talk to Travis more, but I know when hes gone I will rarely get to talk to him, but it will be ok. I just need him to come back so I can spend time with him before he does leave. I miss him a lot. I really think I'm going to head to bed and try to sleep even though it is like 8:15 lol

as of today...

Travis and I are preparing for his upcoming deployment in September. He is currently in training in VA until the end of the month and I cannot talk to him. It sucks, but we've got this. I do miss him like crazy and wish he was here or I was there. We've had a couple fights recently but they are due to stress and we have worked everything out. I just cant wait to see him again! All in all this next year is gonna be long, he has training in Va..Training in Cali..deploys in Sept.. and will be home around this time next year :) I love him so much, I cant wait til everything falls into place :)

Update on me :)

Well things have been decent...

Travis and I hit a few rough moments, nothing big, just little fights. I went down and saw him the week of Jan 22... and had an amazing weekend with him and Misty.. I cant wait to go back..

While I was there..we discussed... getting MARRIED! He wants to get married before he deploys and then have the wedding when he gets back.. we've talked about it since I've been home as well.

I cant wait :) nothing is set in stone though, so keep your fingers crossed! Right now it looks as if he will be deploying in September, we're not sure though, he has 2 months of training coming up where he'll be in Cali for a month then Ft. Pickett for another month..ugh.

Life is good. I'm good. Travis is good. We're good. I have surgery Feb 26 ughhh.... and I turn 22 in a month.. WOW!

Well thats just a quick update.. I'll write more later when I'm not about to pass out :)

xox

I love this song

There's a place I've been lookin' for
That took me in and out of buildings
Behind windows, walls, and doors
And I thought I found it
Couple times, even settled down
And I'd hang around just long enough
To find my way back out
I know now the place that I was trying to reach
Was you, right here in front of me

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here

It's amazing what I let my heart go through
To get me where it got me
In this moment here with you
And it passed me by
God knows how many times
I was so caught up in holding
What I never thought I'd find
I know now, there's a million roads I had to take
To get me in your arms this way

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here

In a love I never thought I'd get to get to - here
And if thats the road
God made me take to be with you

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here

And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here
Oh, baby - Ooo
Oh, got me here


Everything in my past got me to where I am today and I wouldnt change that for the world, I love you baby, your my everything.

baby..every little thing that you do, baby I'm amazed by you...

I'm so ready

For you to be here. While your gone, nothing seems to be ok, I'm a mess and I hate it. I dont know how to handle things and I just need to know your near me. I dont sleep. I miss you. Deployment will be hell on me, but I can do it, we both know I can. Hopefully he'll be getting his place off base by the spring if he doesnt deploy before then! And I will go down and stay for awhile and help him get settled :) I've had a weird gut feeling lately...hopefully its nothing, but who knows.. I guess we'll find out soon. Him an I need to sit down and have some serious talks while hes home and figure some shit out. By this time next week he should be home and I should be in his arms hopefully as long as his dad doesnt bitch about me staying there..hopefully he wont.. ugh... we'll see I guess! Well I'm gonna try and lay down..and watch some tv until I pass out.

xo